i die.

So here's the thing, i'm getting a lot of friend requests on facebook recently. Good thing is, new friends (for those people i've met & known). Bad thing is, waste of time (for those who add me randomly and without a purpose). I truly believe that having a lot of contacts is very very good. Communication, socialization and all is my field of expertise interest. And I understand that some people share the same views as I do when it comes to having a lot of contacts. But I don't go to the extent of adding people for fun just because I want to increase the number of friends on facebook. Seriously, that is so Friendster era. And nobody uses friendster anymore, except for games.

The reason why sometimes I don't hit the Ignore button for requests is because sometimes i don't remember the people i meet. Some of them look so different online. I usually approve those people who go to the same high school and college as i do. Some who are bloggers, are excusable because i converse with bloggers as well. Essentialist statement ahead, don't get offended, but most bloggers know how to present themselves in a not-so-annoying way. Most. Not all. Well, professional bloggers, if I must say. And I usually approve those who have a few mutual friends i personally know or have a good relationship with.

So, this was what happened for the past few days.

#1

Some random dude added me on facebook. We had about like 5 mutual friends? But yes, they consist of people I know. So i approved him. Plus, he's from Malaysia. So he posted on my wall thanking me for approving him. And, I commented on his wallpost, asking him whether we've met before or not. And not to my surprise (most people usually do this and it annoys the hell out of me i swear), he said 'not yet' with a very intimidating smiley after that which looks a lot like :-) so as usual, i asked him why did he add me if we haven't met before. And he said he had just arrived in Perth and he wanted new friends.

Aw, cho kiut.

So i asked him a direct question which i don't quite remember what I said exactly, but I'm pretty sure it was about why and how did he find that I was in Perth, from Malaysia and things like that. Cause obviously that'll be a total stalker's job to go through his list of friends and slowly picking out which friend is from Malaysia and studies in Perth - you know what i mean. So I guess I pretty much cornered him to let out the truth, cause honestly I don't give a shit about random people adding me to increase their number of friends or to 'want new friends'. Sorry to say, I'm the wrong person to add.

My question ended up with him deleting the wallpost off my wall and posting a new wallpost on my wall.

 

 

I deleted him.

 

#2

Few days later, I received another request. From a girl. She had this picture of herself which looks pretty legit. And it shows that she studies in Taylor's University Lakeside Campus. The thing about approving people from my college is that it's not as bad as approving people from my uni (Curtin). Uni is so huge compared to college and it's like I see new faces everyday. When I was in Taylor's, no doubt Lakeside was huge, I could still recognize some people as 'Oh, it's her.' or 'Oh, that's the guy. He's always here." things like that you know? But anyway, geting back to this girl who added me and I decided to approve, I then proceed to post on her wall asking who she is.

The next day, I noticed that she didn't reply to my post, but she liked it. And when I scrolled down her profile, I saw a lot of people (after much research) from Taylor's Lakeside posting on her wall, asking her whether they've met before or not, and things like 'thanks for approving'. But the strange thing was, she only liked all of their posts and never gave any replies.

I ended up deleting her as well.

 

#3

And yesterday! This guy added me, apparently from Taylor's University Lakeside Campus as well. He has two mutual friends whom I personally know in real life, who also happen to study in the same college and course. So, what the heck, I approve him and posted on his wall asking if we've met. What happened was, he deleted that post! He deliberately deleted it, and INBOXED me on facebook messages saying ello" Thanks accept :).

He didn't reply. I posted on his wall again, asking who he is. He's just a step closer from being deleted. Pending.

But seriously, the point is. It's like asking 'who are you' when you're the one who made the call in the first place. It's so annoying! And it happens on bbm too. When I post up my bbpin and gave a warning that I only approve people I know, random strangers STILL add me. And I know that they're strangers because they come from kuwait and places I've never had friends from before! One time I ended up deleting my entire contact list in my bbm because they were all strangers!

Ugh!

 

 

Feeling so much better after blogging.
Time to work on my assignments! Will blog more soon!

x

you still have all of my heart.

12.13 pm and it's approximately 23 degrees outside. I think it's 23 degrees inside the house too since all the cold air is seeping through the door. That's autumn. I think. I hope? 23 degrees and I'm already complaining. Thank God I won't be here for the winter. I think I'll stick to clothes that covers up from now. It'll probably help my dehydrated skin.

It's too cold, can I be excused from class today?
I'll promise to be good.

It's just the beginning and I'm already complaining. Yes, i do wonder how long i can keep this up. I think it's all in the head - not that i'm saying i'll ever look at this place in a good way. But i had a bad start, in this place, and i'm clearly one-sided. Bias. Prejudice. Essentialist. I won't be afraid to admit I'm judging everything here from a biased pov. Funny, i was just learning this the other day in class - i know. I write essays about it. I spent 3 plus days brainstorming about it. I won't say that i'm not sick of it - i am. This place hasn't been nice to me, and knowing myself - it's going to take a long time for me to open up, to accept things the way it is here.

But of course, by the time that happens, i wouldn't be here anymore.

Hm, wait! Searching for shits to give:

0%

And not a single shit was given. Sorry, i just don't like this place.
Meanwhile, I'll be looking forward for this.

x

"You ever wake up from a really good dream and try to get back to sleep? Or you got the flu and you promise yourself that you’d appreciate normal so much more if you could just get back to it. That’s the way I feel. I just want things to go back to the way they were."
(Lucas Scott, One Tree Hill S01E02)

 

Sometimes I lay in bed, wide awake. Sometimes tossing and turning, sometimes laying still. Many times, thinking. Most of the time, absolutely blank. It's hard for anyone to tell if I've already gone to bed, unless I engage myself with the usual social networks. But it's not always the truth when I say I'm crashing for the night. Because my thoughts have a mind of its own, and it can decide when it wants to haunt me.

Most of the time, I watch Gossip Girl or HIMYM series, just to tire myself out. Or else, I'd just watch 500 Days of Summer again. Have I told you it was one of my favorite movies? Sometimes, I'd flip through a really thick fashion magazine, slowly read through the pages and hoping the magazine would last me the entire night. On certain days, I'd spend my entire night trying to pry anything that's interesting out from the Internet. 90% of the time, I'd be on Tumblr. Recently, I turn to manicure for comfort.

But it won't be for long until my thoughts slowly creep in through the back door of my mind.

I now pronounce, Vanity Elements, OPEN.

I'm so excited, even days after the opening! In case you didn't get information, Vanity Elements is a blog where I post up pictures on beauty, mainly manicure. I didn't want to flood this blog with beauty stuff and I figured it'll be easier for my readers - those seeking for beauty posts and non beauty posts. And since I'm OCD, it makes me even happier to seperate my posts under different categories!

So, please do pay a visit to my new blog, it's www.vanityelements.blogspot.com. You can throw in comments or suggestions, and even ask questions if you have things that you re unsure about - I'll try my best to answer them. :) Of course, I'll design a new button badge to put on my profile - just not now as I'm pretty busy with a few things. But I'll definitely update.

 

Before anything else,

*GASP*
New manicure designs coming up! Head over to Vanity Elements to check them out now!

 

Thank you all for your endless support!
XX

Sometimes it sucks blogging here because the photo uploading process is extremely slow. I'd usually have to wait for so long to upload pictures through OnSugar, and whats worse, they don't have a multiple picture uploading system! So I use an third party uploading system, Picasa to upload straight from my desktop. But then I'd have to resize the pictures because my posting section wouldn't allow me to upload a certain size. And resizing it would only lower the resolution and it wouldn't really turn out appealing. And you know how I am when it comes to photography. :( So I might probably open a manicure blog, back in Blogger. PROBABLY. It really all just depends on how free I am, which I can't really judge now because I haven't started studying yet.

Anyhow, I was pretty free, so I decided to occupy myself with manicure again.
This time, I decided to paint my sister's nails (since she didn't credit me in her own blog, pfft. :@).
So here it is;

 

From left: BIHUN No:8313, Face it Platinum Nails GL111, Ludanmei No: 5612

 

My sister's nails with gold & glittery orange leopard print.

 

 

A much closer view of the nails..

I had to tilt the picture sideways so that I didn't have to change the resolution. :/
Color combination are purely her ideas, I swear I cannot decide on anything on my own!

So I've decided to do something interesting and challenging - I took up a weekly challenge. And this time, I will try to commit to it. I was introduced to this challenge by my sister and I didn't want to take up the challenge in the first place because I knew I wouldn't be able to commit. But after giving a thought about it, I figured that this would be the time for me to learn to be committed to something that I've started and not let my short attention span get in the way of achieving things.

I mean like, do you remember the Tumblr 30 Day Letter Challenge?

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x2

 

x4

 

x6

 

x8

 

Do you see it? Did you get my point?

 

8 posts for a 30 day challenge. EIGHT POSTS FOR A THIRTY DAY CHALLENGE. Now do you see how undedicated I am? I must be ashamed of myself. So that is why I am starting all over again! With this new interesting challenge, lets hope I'll be able to keep up with it. And if I'm late, I don't mind it if any of you could remind/push me to get on with the next challenge until it's all finished.

 

So, this challenge would go on for 11 weeks, requiring me to update the color of my nails every week according to the instructions below. The ideas are already popping into my head! I'm so excited! ... Though I know I should not speak too soon.

So this week's manicure would be inspired by my favorite cause/charity. I actually have a few charity/causes in my favorites right now, and besides the famous Breast Cancer cause, I decided to do something related to the wildlife. So, I chose World Wildlife Fund (WWF). Instead of using a panda which signifies the WWF (you can also recognize from the WWF logo), I decided to use a tiger because it's one 13 Global Initiatives that WWF is currently focusing on. I browsed through Google for a few ideas because I'm just so terribly indecisive with my own ideas - and even after Google's help, it took me about an hour plus to finally decide on the nail art design for this week's challenge.

So, I finally came up with..

 

Tiger stripes!

 

A not so close up picture of my tiger print manicure! Which didn't turn out professional at all, I admit I am no where near professional and one of the main reasons why I didn't wanna take up this challenge is because I am extremely ashamed of my manicure skills. Despite the fact my parents think I am so good at it, I beg to differ - sometimes our parents tend to take the littlest of skills their kids have and turn it into the best they've ever seen, which is a good thing!

I also used..

From left: Neon Orange, Yellow Sunshine and Twilight Zone - all from Elianto itself. And a really thin nail art brush for the tiger print details.

 

I didn't take much pictures though, I was getting really tired, despite the fact that it's only 10.58PM. I'm telling you, it must be the lack of activities to do at home that it's making me go to bed earlier and earlier everyday. Let me tell you something,

I slept at 9 the other day.

GASP.

Birthdays don't necessarily have to come with cakes & presents.

That's what I learnt because for my 19th birthday, I had cakes made out of chips & shrimps. Well, not literally 'cake' if you put it that way. Great, not that it only started to sound disgusting, the image that I put into my own head is starting to disgust me too. -_- Moving on, let me tell you the series of events that happened on the 18th of October. Fuuuuh, I made that sound like I had 12345678234567 surprises on that day, I'm amazing! No, to be exact, i had two. HAHA.

The first was from my troller who lives just about 8 minutes away from me.

 

And a joker who lives just about 5 seconds away from me.

Who I constantly fight with...

 

God knows how they did it, but sheila managed to sneak into my house at midnight, with the help of my sister, without me knowing; and came into my room holding a plate filled with chips with a lighted candle in the middle. State of shock. Even shocking when she and my sister started singing the birthday song. HAHA. But it was amazing, and I am truly grateful. ♥

That night ma hommies brought me to Bubba Gump @ Pyramid for a birthday dinner. :D
Pictures will do the talking, courtesy of both Sylvia & Rick.

As usual, I'd be on the phone.
Why am I always on the phone when I'm out with my friends? :|

Still on the phone.

She always does this expression :D

The one always photo bombing me. I've finally found a photo of him alone. -_-

I think they're cutting cost because it used to be fatter and taller. :O

 

And when they finally caught me off guard...

They brought a chair and decided to make me stand on it. 

JUST SO HAPPEN when we got into the restaurant, one of the waitress overheard Justin saying "Your birthday then you must sit in the middle." Then she went asdfghjkl and excited because it was the first birthday celebration in Bubba Gump on that day. God have mercy. And I guess they were watching us the entire time, waiting for us to finish up our food so that they could proceed with the 'celebration'.

 

And I had to give a speech.

 

And shake my ass if I wanted my 'cake'..

... which came in an ice cream form. I told you birthday celebrations don't necessarily come with cakes anymore.

It looked so yummy, I got excited! :3

But it tasted ...

... bad.

Like sour cream.

 

After that was yumcha time @ Kuchai Lama.

She's so excited for tea.

So, am I, for water. :3
And....

 

If you get what I mean. ;)

 

And at the end of the day, it's always the 4 of us. ♥

♥

 

Thank you for all the wishes on Facebook, Twitter, texts & calls.
And especially to my bubu if you're reading this :3

 

Ever felt so lost? Not knowing where to belong?

You're not alone.

As far as I'm concerned, I feel the same way all the time. Despite the people I have around me, and the places I regard as where I can take shelter and rest - I still have my doubts. I mean, I do feel at home. But, I'm thinking that maybe there is a deeper meaning to the word 'home', and I've probably only been there a couple of times. God knows, maybe only in my dreams.

 

 

 

I know, I'm starting to accept that too.

I'll also quit apologizing for not blogging so often now. Could it be, I have lost my inspiration to blog, or I just have less exciting things happening around me. I can't wait to start studying again. Can't believe I'm saying this, but really, I just can't wait to do something again. I think I'm getting lazier day by day. My attention span is getting shorter and everything that used to excite me could only enthuse my senses for a while.

And hence the reason why I'm stopped typing in this space for the past 10 minutes. I'm left with absolutely nothing to say cause well, nothing's happening. This is pathetic, why am I still even typing.

 

I shall leave this tiny space for now and come back when I have something more interesting to say.